self-loathing

comparative more self-loathing · superlative most self-loathing

1. Loathing oneself.

   He said he made a proverb: In a world with bodies with a thousand minds, self-loathing beings runs rampant; thus, there should not be too many cooks making broth.

   Synonyms: self-hating

1. uncountableThe feeling of revulsion or self-loathing towards oneself.

   He suspected his self-loathing stemmed from his feeling of not performing well enough.

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   [quoting Anne Lamott]: Out of the right speaker in your inner ear will come the endless stream of self-aggrandizement, the recitation of one's specialness, of how much more open and gifted and brilliant and knowing and misunderstood and humble one is. Out of the left speaker will be the rap songs of self-loathing, the list of all the things one doesn't do well, of all the mistakes one has made today and over an entire lifetime, the doubt, the assertion that everything that one touches turns to shit, that one doesn't do relationships well, that one is in every way a fraud, incapable of selfless love, that one has no talent or insight, and on and on and on.

   2016, Ryan Holiday, Ego is the Enemy, pages 69-70